On August 12, 2011, I started this blog. It was going to be an exercise in diligence and intentionality and not giving up too soon.
That's why it's tough to be here, 1 year, 100 posts, and over 5000 page views later, talking about setting this project aside for a while. And yet, that's what I'm here to do.
One of my favorite authors loves to talk about life's seasons. And while that word always gives me a funny, squirmy feeling, I can't deny that it's a very accurate way to describe how life works. The cycles, the changes, the sunny times and the rainy ones–life has a very seasonal way of happening, and right now, I'm preparing to enter a new season.
In many ways, yes, it's back-to-school as usual–but this year is different. It's the final countdown. It's eight months of time to spruce-up my resume and seriously, what am I going to do when I graduate? It's senior thesis projects and last hoorahs. It's my last chance to enjoy being a "college kid" before venturing out into the big, wide world.
And it's not something I want to miss out on because I'm stuck behind my computer.
Because, you see, in being so intentional about blogging for the past year, I allowed myself to become very unintentional in other areas of my life–one of the biggest ones being my relationships with people. As an introvert, I am naturally challenged when it comes to spending time with people and building relationships. I love me some alone time.
So when I can tell myself I need to blog it only makes it that much easier for me to be selfish with my time.
This year, I don't want to live in the comfort of my little blogging bubble. I want to spend time building people up, not just hoping someone might be affected by what they read on my blog. I want to connect with people in real life, not through retweets and reposts and repins.
But then there's also that inner voice telling me I'm committing social media suicide–telling me if I stop now, I'll have to start back at the beginning when I decide to come back (which I fully intend to do someday).
I keep silencing that voice with the knowledge that God is in control, and if it's in his plan for me to have a successful blog one, two, or ten years from now, he will make it happen, regardless of what I do in this moment. Like it says in Ecclesiastes 3, "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens…a time to blog, and a time to stop blogging" (okay, so maybe I made up that last part). It's time to set aside the blogging thing for now, but I trust that God will do something amazing with all the extra time I'll have because of it.
In general, I want to take a break from the whole "look at me, I'm on the internet!" thing.
I've become so used to the idea that you need to be everywhere at all times in order to be relevant that I just keep shoving my life out into the cyber world, and I'm not even really sure why I do it or what it all means. I want this season to be one of real life, not virtual life. I want it to be one of social interaction, not social media. I'll have plenty of time to blog when I'm living alone in some obscure small town in middle-America because it's the only place I could find a job after graduation.
So no, this isn't goodbye, it's just see you later. I don't know when later is, but I have a feeling it will be sometime not too far after May 4, 2013. If you're my real-life friend, I look forward to seeing you in real life. And if you are a random person I don't know…well, first of all, thanks for reading, and second of all, I guess you'll have to live with 140 character updates for a while.
It's been fun! I look forward to the day when we can be together again.